YAHLah

After this post, i hope when you say "YAHLah" you think of food.

Yummy And Healthy food. And as older people / naggier people will say "It's all for your own good" I am going to tell you the same thing.. What i am going to bug you from now on about.. Is all for your own good.

You guys know i have migraine right? Really bad migraine. By really bad, i mean really freaking bad. You can read about my post HERE. I have all the effects of migraine.

I usually like to avoid talking about it becox i believe talking about it will remind me and my body of it and it will come more often. And when it hits me (always suddenly, out of nowhere), i'd get blind spot which will immediately make me near disabled, numbness at my limbs, at my tongue, i'd feel super duper nauseous like i need to puke my guts out cox nothing in my body seems right inside. And with all these together, there will be the actual migraine - The worst headache you can imagine.

The kind of pain that goes from your shoulder to neck to your head.

And panadol won't help. Caffox (which only helps my blind spot) also won't ease the pain.

There will only be me in a room.. With lights off. Sometimes maybe i'd play some soft music.

Sometimes the sound of my cries and scream and me hitting my own head to apply pressure on it to temporarily soothe the pain. Accupotomy already helped improve the situation a lot. But i doubt i'd go back again becox after acupotomy, if i wear heels / have slightly less than perfect posture, my whole neck down to my spine will just behave like a stiff bitch. So..

Basically i have no help.

I only have myself and God. I don't know which God. But just someone bigger, better. Who knows more. And i choose to believe he put me through this since i was 13, for a good reason.

Maybe it's to justify for my pain, to make myself feel better.

But maybe i really am supposed to be better than who i am now.

You might or might not believe but i was so helpless and lost yesterday. Cox migraine hit me at about 3pm yesterday. I got better at 5pm. And it came back at 8pm or so.

I was like.. Really? Me again? There's only one fucking person in the world who can suffer this at one time, is it? And i have to cover double shift today?! REALLY?!

So it lasted til 5am.

I was battling it. You know when you refuse to let something get you down, you fight it. You do better than it. You handle more than what it throws you. But this really just tear me apart. Like.. What's my life gonna be? No matter how much money i earn, how many pretty clothes i buy, i am always open to this pain.. SO. I was really thinking of giving up. And by giving up, i mean maybe go to the A&E and ask for a morphine jab or some shit, to stop the pain. But i can't. Becox if i give up one time, my body would need higher measure to counter it the next time.

I started with panadol. Then it lost its effect then i move on to a few other medication before i thought i found 仙丹 Caffox. Now caffox can only fix my blind spot. It doesn't help anything else anymore.

So i refuse to get more serious drugs. WHY DO I NEED SERIOUS DRUGS.

WHY CAN'T THIS FUCKING THING JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. I was so angry and frustrated i cried so badly. And sometimes.. I really feel like only dying could take me away from the pain but i don't wanna die lah!!! My life is really quite awesome i just cannot die!!!

So at 3am, Michelle told me "You really have to take this seriously.. You eat outside food everyday and you know how much MSG they have..?" She is right.

MSG is also one of the main trigger for migraine.

Equally harmful as cured / preserved food.

So. Right at the second.. I finally manage to find reasoning in all the stupid shit i have been going through for 13 years.. I need to eat healthy and i can't just stop there. I have to advocate healthy-eating becox only by doing this, i can continue to motivate myself while i encourage others. They say you have to walk the walk and not just talk the talk.

I am still trying to be motivated to LIVE healthy (like example by sleeping in the correct timezone lol and by exercising at least a little bit a day) but you know what they say.. Baby steps. Exercising is really not easy =X I hope maybe Punggol open a indoor swimming pool, ah maybe then! Haha.

And "eating healthily" really sounds right for me becox you also know, my favourite food is McDonald's and crispy bacon and lots and lotsa ba you pok (deep fried pork lard) and chocolate and super ring and potato chips and all sort of things that has heavy flavouring and taste.

Think of anything deep fried, unhealthy, tasty with lotsa flavour, think of me. It is me. Becox you are what you eat. Or at least that's what many people say haha. I am walking piece of pork lard haha.


So anyway. I finally found meaning in the pain i go through. And like i said, that is, to encourage more people to eat greener, healthier, cleaner. So today i woke up before Josh and he was half-awake and i was changing out to head out and he ask me "Where you going so early?"

I said "I am going to the market" He jumped up awake and was like "HUH?"

That's right. Hahaha. So i went to the market and bought lotsa colour. Red and orange and green and white. Food in their natural form are really beautiful.

So i am calling this journey YAHLah!

YAH - Yummy And Healthy

Becox i always tell people who nag at me to healthier, "yah lah yah lah" Patronising them.

But now YAHLah has a whole new meaning!!! =DDD Today i posted the lunch i cooked on instagram (@bongqiuqiu) and the response was quite good! Thank you guys who shared more yummy and healthy recipes with me by hashtagging #YAHLah =DDD

This is what i made for lunch! Eating healthy is MUCH MUCH easier and enjoyable than i thought. Becox you can throw in things you like, just don't "contaminate" them with too much flavouring ha!

Sliced zucchini and halved cherry tomatoes. Then i chill them in the fridge.

Mash up the hard boil eggs (actually one would be good enough but i thought that will be too little so i got a little greedy haha) with a fork and while doing that, sprinkle a tiny bit of seasalt and pepper!

Bring out the chilled tomatoes and zucchini and then drizzle your favourite sauce over it! Drizzle ah, don't pour haha. I would have poured if i was me one day ago. But i am a changed person now.

So there you have! Appertizing salad (i used Japanese roasted sesame salad dressing, but the milky kind of sesame sauce is super yummy and awesome too) and your mashed egg to go with bread! If you like cheese you may layer cheese before you scoop on the eggs ^.^ It is very very yummy.

From someone who loves everything extra, Cai Tao Kway extra black, extra egg, Mee Pok extra minced pork and deep fried pork lard, Nasi Lemak extra egg, in fact, every dish that i can add extra eggs, i won't let it pass. I ask Josh what other kind of food i always wanna add something "EXTRA"

He say "Basically everything" He is right. Even chicken rice i'd ask for extra of the salty sesame oil with soya sauce. Why am i like this. My kidneys confirm hate me lol.

From someone like me a day ago, to me today.. I think it's a pretty huge leap. You can praise me, thank you =D Hahaha. I hope more than that, you can join me. I am not going to preach.

I still love McDonald's a lot. I still love KFC. I still love Pizza Hut. I still am going to add extra pork lard when i eat noodles (i am sorry, for this one i might have to go to pork lard rehab centre to quit lol), i still love all the food that's out there.

But all i am saying is.. I will start adding in fresh, healthy food, fruits and more vegetables into my diet. And i strongly encourage you to! Becox there might be afterlife.. But there's only one body to take care of this life. And i really did see a ray of hope when the idea of "Healthier food" came to me last night.. I hope this light will continue to shine bright.

Stay healthy. That's the best we can do for ourselves and for the people who love us.

Hashtag #YAHLah if you have a YUMMY and HEALTHY recipe to share with all of us ^.^

Better still if it's YEAHLah! Yummy, Easy And Healthy!